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"You put someone on a pedestal and forget they're human."
"It's not like I mean to. Beautiful people are beautiful and I want to admire them. I want to be around them. Maybe I forget they have faults, too, that they live lives away from me."
"And then you see a photo of them on social media in a place you have no idea about, with people you don't know, and somehow you worm your way into my bed again."
"You allow it," he said accusingly.
Gian sat up and looked at the man next to him. "I don't. This is not okay, John. It has got to stop."
"You're beautiful, too, Gian-"
"Shut the fuck up. I don't want to hear it." Gian climbed out of bed and buttoned up his jeans. "Go home."
"I don't wanna."
"Did you text Alexis and Turner about staying out late?"
John didn't want to answer. He rolled over and pulled the thin old blanket up to his red-tinged ears. He realized Gian wasn't going to say anything until he answered so he said, "I don't want to talk to them right now."
Gian sighed. "When do you ever?" He paused and pulled a shirt over his head. "I'm buying breakfast. What d'you want?"
"A sausage mc muffin."
"I'll be back in twenty." Gian grabbed his keys from the coffee table and left the small single room apartment.
John closed his eyes and cried.
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"It's not like I mean to. Beautiful people are beautiful and I want to admire them. I want to be around them. Maybe I forget they have faults, too, that they live lives away from me."
"And then you see a photo of them on social media in a place you have no idea about, with people you don't know, and somehow you worm your way into my bed again."
"You allow it," he said accusingly.
Gian sat up and looked at the man next to him. "I don't. This is not okay, John. It has got to stop."
"You're beautiful, too, Gian-"
"Shut the fuck up. I don't want to hear it." Gian climbed out of bed and buttoned up his jeans. "Go home."
"I don't wanna."
"Did you text Alexis and Turner about staying out late?"
John didn't want to answer. He rolled over and pulled the thin old blanket up to his red-tinged ears. He realized Gian wasn't going to say anything until he answered so he said, "I don't want to talk to them right now."
Gian sighed. "When do you ever?" He paused and pulled a shirt over his head. "I'm buying breakfast. What d'you want?"
"A sausage mc muffin."
"I'll be back in twenty." Gian grabbed his keys from the coffee table and left the small single room apartment.
John closed his eyes and cried.
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wordcount: 241
a/n: wrote it in 10min without any editing as a (mostly) straight to document piece.