daily writing challenge - day 2

[elydesia]

[fake journal entry]

In sixth grade, this girl in our class ran away and committed suicide. They never found her body, though. We were never read her suicide note, but the adults told the class we were the reason why she died. They told us we bullied her, and she had had enough.

I, for one, didn't even notice there was bullying going around. The other kids in the class never thought they were bullying her, either. But nonetheless, the weight of another human's life pushed us down into the dirt.

Never had I felt guilt as thick and immense until that day. I felt like I had done no wrong actions, but as I grew up, I realized it was the lack of action and awareness that caused this girl to take her life.

There was a phase where I felt like a murderer. I'm sure everyone in the class felt like they had done something wrong, I'm sure they regretted their actions.

I later on realized how cruel children can be, and when I looked back at my sixth grade class, they were little more than your average school bullies. It never seemed so serious to cause another person to take their life. But just like how children can be cruel, they can also be sensitive. That girl must have been a sensitive one, and none of us thought about that. No one thought about what effect the teasing would have on her.

A few days ago, I bumped into someone. She looked like how that girl in sixth grade would have looked, if she had lived. Instantly curious about her, I asked her out to dinner.

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author's note
thought of this while eating breakfast today.
took a while to write it out, though :c

word count:276 words

30 days of letters - day 2

[elydesia]

dear, crush;

hi. I'll try to keep this letter short.

Thank you for being there for me.
You've become someone I can trust and confide in, someone who cheers me up from my gloom. You pick up on the little things and remember all these stupid things I tell you. You're smarter than you give yourself credit for.

However, you're also a self defeatist. And that pisses me off. You don't go out and grab what you want. You think too much of others, a quality both charming and irritating. Giving up too easily when it comes to yourself, and then being stubborn either for what pride you have or just because you're a stubborn ass.

You are a positive influence on me, whether you've realized it or not. You've helped me a great deal, and I'm very thankful. Very humorous, and quite charming. You should have more self confidence! I would say "believe in people more" except that isn't the issue. You have to pick who you call a friend wisely if you don't want to get hurt or disappointed.

I just wish I could help you the same way you've helped me.

best regards,
kiwa